Woke up today fired up. Perhaps the planetary influences or the polarity of the world witnessing peace and war daily, or maybe because I haven’t felt this way in a while. Long while.
It has been over two months that I have been living in LA and it has been quite the transition. Deep in the process of writing my book, I have spent plenty of time reviewing my life. It’s like having the opportunity to go deep in meditation and witness your life as an outsider. How cool is that? Many times I wanted to whisper to my former Self and tell her that everything will be ok and that even this - you will one day appreciate.
It has been a painful process looking back at my life, at least initially. There had been plenty of shame and disappointment, living a life of secrecy and chronic depression and even suicidal thoughts. I suffered a lot - in the hands of others and mostly, from self afflicted pain.
I realized I gave away my power easily, not recognizing my own self worth and welcoming many situations into my life that proved this to me. It is after all what I believed and so why would I see anything different. And to add to this, I lived a separate life on the outside, committing myself to helping others as a way to prevent me from dealing with the parts of me that I buried deep within.
No matter how many times you try to convince yourself of something through practice, mantra and repetition, your core beliefs will always show you the truth. I feel that sometimes people may completely submerge themselves in their ‘practice’, whatever that may look like, as a way to avoid parts of themselves instead of surrendering to that which arises.
I have so much to share about this entire process of rebirthing but I don’t want it to be heavy or dark because it is a story of power and light. And my reason for sharing is perhaps to help another who may be listening to an old song about themselves that they may not have even remembered when or where they first heard it. But it has become a tune one listens to daily, humming to it, skipping to it and singing themselves to sleep to it.
“The most common way people give up their power is by thinking they don’t have any.” - Alice Walker
Oh this magical life we live. Once we are able to taste the truth of who we are and what unites us all, so many things dissolve. Cellular changes occur, dissolving old beliefs, rewiring the brain and you even begin to hear a different sound as if you have jumped timelines. Seriously. Once you feel empowered, the events of your life are changed. You could look at your past differently which then reframes your present experience which ultimately reshapes your future.
This takes courage and honesty. The ‘transparency’ and ‘authenticity’ that people are buzzing about these days and often goes misunderstood. But we are all going through it can’t you see? Even the planet we live on is experiencing the process of rebirthing through destruction. It is a complete life overhaul. We are entering a new time, a new energy, a new consciousness.
Let us honor our life experiences, be grateful for the opportunities to press the reset button and treasure these lessons and share! The road to self discovery, self mastery and self love is not only a road to self but a road to better serve others.